constant fear

I carefully watch you
Mark your every move
If you start to walk towards me
I flinch and run to the room’s corner

You get closer and closer
A dark and evil look in your eyes
I see the way you look at me
And I feel dirty and disgusting

You tell me not to be afraid
And that you’d never hurt me
But I can tell that
You don’t plan on keeping that promise

You lean forward, in my face
And say that it’s ok
This won’t hurt at all
And that you will treat me right

She walks in the room
My Savior, my hero
She tells you to let me go
And that she’s not leaving without me

You shove me underneath the covers
And sit directly on top of me
So the battle begins
But who will win the war?

For years and years
You caused me pain
Made me feel like what you were trying to do was all right
And made me live in fear everyday, hoping that you wouldn’t do anything

That time is gone
I’m now grown
But my past still haunts my dreams
And won’t let me move on

So how can I cure this?
Get rid of this terrible curse?
Just forget about it and move on?
Or tell the truth to everyone about the monster that stole my childhood